Learning to CHILL.October 26, 2014
Chillshop™ was conceived while I lay in a hospital bed recovering from a vicious altercation with exhaustion because no other prescription could manage my urges to “do more” be more”, “get more”, and “prove more”.
Of course that wasn’t the “official” diagnosis. The real one had a bunch more letters.
But I knew.
I knew that I’d been running myself to ragged pieces cause somewhere along the line I’d internalized that my greatest value was what I could “do”, how hard I could and would work, how far I’d live up to the legacy of super women I come from even if it left me faded and perpetually empty.
I knew that’d I’d been giving ‘good ole sit down and rest’ the stiff middle finger!
I knew I’d been overspending, which created the real need to work harder, hustle more, yada yada.
I knew that busy-ness had just become a way for me not to see me, not to be with me, thus— you got it— I ain’t got to deal with me.
I knew that I DID actually have time to meditate, to maintain the yin and restorative yoga practices that truly nourished me, but crossfit, power, and hot yoga burned more calories and summer was coming and…
In that dreary gray room I realized this “sometimes it takes more courage to stop than to keep going.”
I’ve been studying, learning, and practicing how to pause via restorative and yin yoga, meditation, yoga nidra, soul listening, and writing since then.
CHILLshop encompasses all of that and more.
CHILL means a lot of different things to a lot of different folk.
For me it means rest, “hold up”, pause, be easy, get quiet, listen ma, simmer down-now, let’s be together, it’s okay.
Be still for a spell.